She was just a young typical 12-year-old girl that thought she could never be hurt. She had a good family on one side, the other, not so much. She thought that her world was perfect and full of big dreams of becoming famous and well known. Suddenly all of her dreams had been crushed. She didn’t want anything but him. He was the perfect one for her and she thought that he loved her and would never hurt her, but he ruined her. As soon as they started dating her grades slipped, she was always distracted in sports, and was holding the biggest secret of her life from her mom. She wanted to tell her mom, but he was too old and she would’ve just had to forget completely about him. Sometimes her mom would ask who he was and she would just lie and say she had no idea. He completely changed her life. Her mom was her best friend for her entire life until he came along. After finding him, her and her mom would go days without talking. She would lie in bed at night crying herself to sleep because she couldn’t tell her mom about how happy she was becoming and how much she wanted her to understand even though she knew she never would. She wanted to tell her mom, have her mom hug her, and say that it was fine and she would let her. Her mom wouldn’t, she knew she wouldn’t.
What would anyone do when they have to keep the biggest secret of they’re life from their best friend? They go crazy. She started just talking to him and abandoned all of her friends. She only talked to them in school because she had to, as soon as she went home she ignored them and acted like she didn’t even know whom they were. She didn’t even know them anymore and she really didn’t care. She didn’t care about anything except him, because he was becoming her life. She was dying, she would’ve done anything for him so she did and it ruined her. She gave up on everything that she thought he wouldn’t like. She didn’t think her friends were mature enough for him so she stopped talking to them and she felt if she didn’t go behind her mom’s back to date him she would loose him completely and he’d forget about her.
It was too late, he already had. She didn’t know it was going to happen but he left and she should’ve seen it coming, but she didn’t because she was being hypnotized. He wasn’t the one for her. He didn’t even like her anymore he just said he loved her to hide the hurt. Deep down he did love her but she wasn’t old enough or good enough for someone like him. She would never be perfect to him. She never was and it was luck that she got him in the first place and had him for 8 months.
To her those were the best 8 months of her life, but later on she realized that every day made it harder and harder for her to forget. She should’ve known that it would end, but she was only 12 no one can fall in love that young and know what true love is. She thought she did and she still does, no matter how old you are you can fall in love whether you are 12 or 112. She knew what love was but this was the wrong kind of love. It was forbidden love. It would never work and she just hurt herself by trying to.
That girl is me. I made bad mistakes and I’ve learned from them. I’ve learned to not let one person completely control my life, because it isn’t worth it. All of this has made me who I am today. A strong girl that doesn’t let guys get in the way of my dreams. My dreams are more important. Going against my mom was wrong but I couldn’t help it. I was in love and a complete idiot. I let him ruin my life and I’m not going to do it again. I’m going to wait to find guys until I’m done chasing my dreams. There will always be a guy out there for me, but only I have so many chances to make my dreams come true. This is my life and I’m going to live it the way I know is best for me. Free.