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Felicia G

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"The saddest moment in life was when..." my dad passed away. His name was Norman Lee Marcov and he was 37 when he died. I lost my best friend!

            My dad, Norman Lee Marcov was born on January 17th, 1966 in Dubuque Iowa. His parents are Donald, and Teresa, both of Dubuque. He has five brothers and six sisters, all of Dubuque.

            He has five children, two boys and three girls. The kids are Zachary, 23, of Dubuque, Iowa, Amber, 21, of T-Town, Arizona, Dalton, 14, Hannah, 11, and Felicia, 17, all of Clermont, Iowa. He was married to Julie, of Clermont, Iowa.

            Two of the five children have children of their own. Amber has three boys of her own and they are  Julian, Christian, and James. Zachary has two children, one being adopted when he gets married to his fiance Candace. Zach's kids are Levi, his own and Collin, will be adopted when he gets married.

             My dad was the biggest Nascar fan around. He also loved watching the Green Bay Packers play. He enjoyed working on cars and hanging out with his family. He always had good luck when he went to the races and I went with. I always cheered him on and he thought it was really good.  After he would win, we would celebrate by going out to eat and then going home and sitting there talking about what happened at the races.

            October 5th, 2002 was the worst day of my life though. My dad had done something I wasn’t very happy with. When I found out what had happened, I cried myself to sleep every night because my dad was gone. My dad had committed suicide. It hurt to lose him.

     The day of the wake, I woke up and took a shower then got dressed. I went downstairs to eat breakfast and then went upstairs, finished putting on my makeup, and then we headed out the day for the wake. The wake lasted all day. After the wake got over, my mom didn’t feel like cooking anything, so we went out to eat at the restaurant my dad always used to take us.

             The next morning, we skipped school because we had the funeral, so when my mom came in and woke me up, I went in and took a shower, then I got dressed. I put my makeup on and then went down and ate something before I had to leave. We all met at the funeral home, where the wake had been the day before. When everyone was there, we decided who rode with whom. Everyone car-pooled so there would not be many cars there. At noon, the funeral started, and everyone that was there was in tears. My uncles and my grandpa were the ones who lowered the casket into the ground.

            When they all started to lower the casket into the ground, I took off running towards the road. My cousin Jacob ran after me and asked me what I was doing, and when I told him I wanted to go with my dad, he said “ your dad is in a better place now” I started crying even more. He and I walked back to where they had lowered the casket in the ground, and I asked them to bring it back up and open the casket back up, they said yes. When they did, I ran over to the casket and hugged my best friend, my dad, the person I looked up too. After that I felt much better, about giving him one last hug. But I was still hurting really bad because he was gone and not coming back.

            I miss my dad very much and I think about him all the time. I will never forget the way I was always following him around and being his shadow. Every summer I go back home to Dubuque and I sit there in the cemetery with my dad and talk to him for hours. I enjoy that but I still cry every once in a while because I miss him!! I love my dad!! It hurts to lose one of your parents to suicide. I hope it never happens to anybody else, if it hasn't happened already.

Comments (21)

heathert said

at 12:59 pm on May 3, 2011

Sad story that shows how you felt. Good descriptions of the days.

lizf said

at 1:00 pm on May 3, 2011

Wow, I don't no what you went through but i can imagine, and i truly am sorry.

kevind said

at 1:00 pm on May 3, 2011

i like how you give detalle on your family and where they where grown up at. good job.

wyattg said

at 1:00 pm on May 3, 2011

What a sad story good description in what you did every morning.

samil said

at 1:03 pm on May 3, 2011

I would have done the same thing you did. It was great the way you described what happened each day and what your dad was like.

mariahm said

at 1:04 pm on May 3, 2011

Very sad story! Great description of your dad being the biggest Nascar fan.

rileys said

at 1:08 pm on May 3, 2011

Sad story, but great job on describing how you felt!

matti said

at 1:14 pm on May 3, 2011

Tough situation for sure, but you described it very well.

brandens said

at 1:22 pm on May 3, 2011

I am sorry to hear the loss of your father. Greawt description on what you said.

lincolnm said

at 1:24 pm on May 3, 2011

Sad story but it was desscriptive and your feeling at the time were easily felt when I read this

whitneys said

at 1:29 pm on May 3, 2011

Sad seems like you remember it very well good details and explaining what was happeing

kandisg said

at 1:43 pm on May 3, 2011

Good job describing each part with specific details.

jamest said

at 2:20 pm on May 3, 2011

Extremely sad nice way to share your feelings.

Mrs. K. said

at 1:08 pm on May 5, 2011

I doubt that many of your classmates can really relate to what you went through, especially at such a young age. It is devastating and never really goes away completely when you lose someone that close to you. I think the fact that you have been writing about it is a very good thing. I know when my mother passed away, sometimes writing about it, even if no one else saw it, was a good way of sorting through things.

isabellas said

at 1:14 pm on May 5, 2011

Very sad story! Sorry you had to go through something like that.

austina said

at 1:19 pm on May 5, 2011

Good story Felicia, I'm sorry that you had to go through that. No one should have to..

maxm said

at 1:47 pm on May 5, 2011

Good job talking about such a hard and sad time in your life. I don't know if I would be able to.

leahg said

at 1:58 pm on May 5, 2011

i'm sorry you had to go through that. you did a great job describing everything!

carrieb said

at 1:58 pm on May 5, 2011

I lost my stepfather in 03. I was young and i still miss him today. Its okay to miss the people you've lost and its hard to get over that you will never see them again. Good story. Great details. Keep writing about it if it makes you feel better about it.

morgant said

at 2:21 pm on May 5, 2011

Aw. Im sorry! but good story. nice job describing everything.

spencers said

at 12:22 pm on May 6, 2011

That is a very sad story. but way to describe everything.

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